12/21/09 08:57 am - no,
"King of Indiscretion," (which is a self-imposed label, and wrongly so), I don't feel like I'm acting like a kid whose parents won't buy me a toy. I do believe I'm acting a bit more rational than you perceive. See, you seem to think that I'm upset because you ruined a great intellectual conversation. Yes, that was originally my discontent, and your disrespect for such a conversation was irritating. But my cross that I bare now is a whole new animal and I feel like you honestly won't give me the time of day because you are scared that I might have a reasonable point. It's so easy to hide behind texts. Your first text to me was that I texted you while you were having sex... really? And I'm being the immature one? No one cares if you score, by the way. In fact, you telling me this information makes me think that this isn't a common occurrance which then makes me think that you don't even deserve the bone you got. And I don't really care what your little girlfriend has to say about any of this, because if she's finding an interest in you, I'm not sure if what she has to say could be anything more than a parrot of what you've already said.
But I digress. I was offended that you would seriously be a roadblock toward insight because you-if you are as smart as you claim-should be hoping that others find a conversation like such that was had and join in and the insight will spread and understanding will better ensue. Yes, that sounds a bit out there abd over the top, but the more people discuss things that matter, the closer we are to ridding the world of ignorance, and therefore unnecessary war. These were all points I had hoped to point out to you before you boiled some unnecessary blood.
In fact, I also want to point out that saying that Facebook is an inappropriate forum for an intellectual discussion to happen is either very ignorant of you or very telling. What it could tell me is that you are crippled socially by your immaturity that you can't once stop and consider that two people might take interest in a discussion and would rather that you not bug them with irrelevant and idiotic statements. Or it could tell me that you are actually scared of people having a smart talk because it plays on your insecurity of your own ability to hold such a kitsch. Either way, you should have just left it alone. If you aren't part of the solution, you are part of the problem. Interestingly enough, we were discussing the perversion of wits. You didn't make a good case for yourself regardless.
And to think that Facebook, MySpace, or any other online forum isn't the place is you showing me your content of the status quo.. which is a huge problem. No one is willing to have talks like the one that was had because people like you stifle freedom of thought. It's so convenient to allow the mundane to rule our social networking, something which I don't find very fair.
But once again I still haven't come to the real reason I'm upset now; the reason for this blog. Yes, all of the above still holds true, but you really hurt me when you went so far as to insinuate that me and my opinions are invalid just because you weren't a part of the discussion and because of the arena of choice. That's no where near fair. That's beyond rude. And then to tell me that I'm the only that cared about the conversation. I rarely have good conversations like that because the people in Houston are so used to blabbing about mindless shit. It was refreshing. And you pushed in that same mindless shit I was hoping to escape in that little window of insight. It made me feel like I could connect to someone on a higher level, but because you had the ability to involve yourself, it wasn't worth it and I wasted my time. Which is basically what you confirmed. Then to deny me of telling you how I felt.. Well, for me, that's the last straw. You don't respect the fact that you hurt my feelings, I can't respect you. You dismiss this like it shouldn't matter to me, but I feel I have a very plausible reason to be upset. I should never be invalid as a friend. Ever. I'm really glad I never held much of an attachment to you because I would have cursed myself later on. I'm not too surprised that a lot of people end up disliking you in the end. This is the way you treat them. You delude yourself into thinking that there is no way you could possibly be wrong. You don't want to accept blame. But to say that that conversation didn't matter to anyone when it was obvious that it mattered to me.. That's low. So goodbye and good luck.
Until next time.
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